I'm in so much pain, it's balls.

I woke up Sunday and felt a bit of pain in my back. It seems that, within minutes, it became progressively worse. I laid on the couch, and it was slightly tolerable. At one point I stood up, because it was the only way I could eat breakfast. I stood at the kitchen counter, and woofed down the food. Standing is only okay sometimes. Eventually I got to the couch, but it got really irritated. I stood up again to go to the bedroom. My roommate's bed is a wonderbed for my back. It's 80% relief while I'm on it. However, while standing, the pain shot up 100x. I literally could not move. I was standing, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't take one step, leaning on my roommate (who is only 5'2 and 150lbs) was unbearable. I was screaming at the top of my lungs and could not stop. The pain got worse and worse in milliseconds, and my reaction got louder and louder. I'm sure people even upstairs could hear me. Brian because so worried and upset, that he said he was calling 911. I told him no. I just couldn't see doing that (don't ask me why.) Somehow I took a deep breath, and almost ran (it seems) to his bedroom and got on the bed with one knee. I couldn't get myself down on the bed. I was sweating, and having just eaten, I really felt like I was going to throw up from the pain. He ran to get me a trash can from the bathroom. I could feel it coming up. But thankfully it didn't. I took a deep breath and let myself fall onto the bed. It hurt, but within minutes, I was feeling a bit of relief. I eventually got myself comfortable with a couple of pillows. He brought me my laptop, and hooked up his TV in that room (it usually just sits there), so I could at least watch TV. At some point later, I fell asleep, but it wasn't that great of a nap. He woke me up because he was almost done with dinner. I couldn't sit up to eat it, but I did lay on my side and get it down. I got up a few times here and there to walk, but never really got to sit anywhere. I just went back to the bed. I was so bored all night from it.

8:30 p.m. I came in the living room and laid on the couch. It is mildly comfortable for me if I get on it right. We watched some TV, and I decdied I was feeling okay enough to shower. I had to poop really bad, but I worried about cleaning up. So I just did that (oddly the toilet can be comfortable during these times if I sit right), and just got into the shower. The heat and the pulsating head helped on my back. I was able to finish up, dry off, and I laid on his bed for a few minutes after. (I swear it's a temporary cure all.) I got my pants and a shirt on, and hobbled back to the living room.

All in all, I got to bed around 2 a.m. I grabbed my cane, and kept it near just in case I needed it to get off the couch or something. I put it next to the bed. I slept with my roommate last night. It's probably why I feel relatively decent today, but right now I'm still on the couch. I've been able to move around more, and I was sitting up earlier with some discomfort. If my pain was a 10 before, it was a 145 yesterday, esp during that one episode where I was screaming like I was being murdered. That's what it felt like.

I have some prescription Ibuprofen, but it does little. Excedrin Back and Body, Doans......they don't even touch it. I really just need someone to give me a shot back there, so I can function. Some kind of cortizone, or whatever would allieve it. I'm desperate. I can't live like this. I know part of it is having stopped working out, losing some strength, and gaining about 10# back. But the catch-22 is that you can't really exercise when you're in such extreme pain.

To top it all off, I logged onto YouTube last night, and COULDN'T. They canceled my account! WHAT THE F?!?!?! I ain't even going to fight it. All my videos are gone. I still have some on my hard drive that I reuploaded last night. I'm grabbing a couple from my Myspace page as well to reupload. It's just irritating.